Rejected

Feel rejected because of being different or is it because he rejected himself?
Both.
Here, many of them have happy family, warm and nice and always there to share with others of what they have...a life he once has...he thought. Now, he could no longer feel the warmth that he once felt but as a stranger to those he live side by side.
What is family anyway?
He's too lazy to seek for the answer now. He had given up hope of seeking the answers in his 'family'.
He wanted to share too, but they would never have the patience nor the time to listen or show any enthusiasm in anything he talked about. His interest are far different beyond their own. He tried to merge himself with they interest but was futile. He can't do it.
Why?
Simply because it was not his interest.
Why couldn't they bend themselves into his? Or show the slightest interest in it?
Why?
He could just tell them what he hope from them. Again, he couldn't.
Why?
Human are selfish and always hope that others would understand his thought without saying it. He wanted to 'jaga' his 'face'. For him pride is another essential things in his life, as a human and as the older brother.

He felt alone, all alone...

Or is he?
There someone there in his family that cares for him, someone much other than his parents. His grandma. He realise this long ago, yet, he never had the patient to talk to her. THe elders...they can be real annoying sometimes...this is why...

Appriciate with what you have, a sentence that always popped up from nowhere whenever he is in a deep thought, but he somehow could never see and understand the sentence properly...

When will he awake from his self created nightmare?