the dim Winged Horse
I am crying...
But why? Why am i crying?
No, stop, stop crying!
I said, ENOUGH!
But still tears continue to fall from my eyes.
I tried my best to stop them but it seemed that my resistance only is not enough.
Why? Why did i fail again?
This is the 2nd in this month!
Why am i such a coward, with my big mouth i still managed to fail. Fail in my presentation...
Failure...what will happened to my MUET speaking test?
Why others tend to bully me just because I'm from Sungai Way?
Home is always so near yet often it seems far to touch.
My home...a place which i loved so dearly yet often i yearn so eagerly to escape from this sanctuary?
I grew up in this place...but aside from those nostalgic childhood memories i had, i had no longer the desire to stay in this place.
Barbaric primitive! Where is thou civilization?!
Why fight over seats in the ships? Why caring so much only to thou self?
Is this what Sungai Way thought you to live?
My soul torn into 2...fighting among each others will.
I felt so helpless, so weary...
I wanna get out of this world!
My tears... when will it truly stop?
God...Please tell me....
posted by Han Fei at 3:48 PM
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yo, what happened to u??? can u share it with me???
oh...just being depressed lately, fail the 2nd time in my public speaking...in front of Ms Lina, got nervous forget every point i remembered, disappointing my team.
"This group's diccussion is very weak,", though this time i didn't cried out for 'help me,' like last time...
Then after that, feeling useless of myself cause i don't have the guts to drive thus i had to get me-self a bus sekolah to get to school, because i'm from Sungai Way which is so close to the bus uncle's resident, that's he always tries to flirt with me and sue yee so that we would just give up our own rights to be send home 1st. Lately he just flirts with us then ignore our pleads to go home 1st.
THen there's another problem. Last week i went to Langkawi with abunch of SUngai Way uncles and aunties, i just can't stand their terriblea nd UNCIVILISED actions such as grabbing food despite that they did not finish theirs yet etc....with i don't wanna mention again.... I can't believe been living in such a low class area!!!
I love my home and the OLD sungai way when i was small, but not this new sungai way!!! ALong with it's uncivilised inhabitants!
That's why 'My soul torn into 2...fighting among each others will.'
*sigh*
so i just being depressed....
that's all....
Well,public speaking is something that will get better everytime you do it.That's what my lecturer said.Try a few more time and probably you will get use to the situation and you might be able to overcome it.
Hmm,don't feel so bad about those uncivilised uncles aunties la.I don't think there're much that you can do to change their attitudes and thinking.So,why make yourself depress over something that you can't do much?
By the way,who bullied you just because you're from Sungai Way?That person is so freaking childish and very idiotic!
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