Scholarship RIGHT NOW?

Sorry to those who kept visiting my blog but found nothing interesting, i know i been all too lazy to update anything. Many apologies.

Anyway, recent stuff i've doing are:

1. Playing PS2 Game, Xenosaga III (too obsess with their great and twisting plot!)
2. Studying...maybe(Exams next friday, and it's Chinese literature History, so much too read, too many to memorise...ah my game....)
3. Still fooling around in school though i did tried my best to study. (We had to go to school despite that PMR is taking place while the rest of the school excpt us don't have the obligations to go to school...Sigh...)
4. Yeay, past my 1st MUET speking test smoothly. Got a Bend 4 grade in speaking!
5. Thinking about something...related to...scholarship....

Just received a call from someone about scholarship....about optics? Is this a con or something....? UK scholarship? AFter graduation immediately get work at England Optical? This is too good to be true.... Temptation is strong...but most probly a con....scholarship? Right now? AFter i have just settled myself in Form Six? Alamak.....my mom asked to check it out whether is this a con or not....if it isn't a con, she wants me to study that field....She said can earn lotsa money....and no need to worry about jobs or unemployed...

Money....indeed i wanna be rich as soon i'm out in to the society and employed, but this isn't what i want...Not these....i want a field related to imagination, but look at me, even in form 6 my studies aren't related to any of my interest...what does form 6 matters?

Friends? Not being alone? Maybe....i don't know.

In addition, i don't have the experience nor the charisma to be a high salary manager or whatsovere that guy told me. i'm not prepared...No, not yet....

.......sigh..........

All of a sudden....i realised i'm getting kinda depressed lately. Everything that is happeneing or happened made me think alot...maybe alittle too much...to the negative side....

Indeed knowledge can such burden....