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THe second exams's here!
Doom....gotta go back and study!

The TRUE DEFINITION

If someone asks you,
“WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE?”

How will you reply?
Do you answer in YOUR OWN POINT of VIEW
or using QUOTATIONS FROM Someone’s EXPEREINCES?

For me?
I don’t know, I really don’t know, YET.
After been through 18 long years soaking myself in EDUCATION and EXPEReINCEs, I still don’t know. Maybe I never really EXPLORE LIFE AS I SHOULD. I just accept what they bestow upon my eyes and ears.

What the True Meaning of Being Righteous or Evil?
Chaos Or Order?
Legal and Illegal?

Where is the Borderline between them?
The GREY LINE between white and black…
Why can’t I see them?

Because they are too abstract to be seen can only be feel.
Feel? What do you mean by that?
How can you feel? How do you know which is what?

These are just unseen concepts suggested by men and accepted by men themselves. Then we embraced these concepts unquestionably. Many of us tend to accept the Law and Tradition started by men since the Dawn of The Civilisation. To oppose them is to oppose the society by which it’s fundamentally built on. Few dare to re-think using their own definition, they own methods and experiences to re-define the meaning and question the believes that society hold. By doing so, they were condemned as heretics sent by the Devil to cause chaos and disorder among humanity.

All these are their Definitions.
What about yours?
Harmony and Disorder defined by themselves, while the younger generation just accept.

Hmm? Confused? Or Starting to feel bored?
Leave now as you fee like. I will not stop you, i neither have the will or the power.
After all, it is your will, your power, YOUR DEFINITION.



Anyway,
Let me give you an example,
‘Chair’.
Why must 4 legged thing which we can rest our Arse on consider as ‘chair’?
Why do they called such things as ‘chair’?
They will probably reply, “Because the book says so,” asked “why the book says so?”
“Cause they had set the standards for a chair,”
“Who set the standards?”
“The Older generations, maybe… …”
Ask the Older Generations, “WHY?”
“Cause someone suggested that things with this shape and functions should be call ‘chair’,”
Thus everyone accepted his definition and it was given a name called ‘chair’.
A someone’s definition.
And we took it as ours own definition.
What if I want to that 4 legged thing as ‘fei’, will I be accepted?
Maybe yes, maybe no, only things that was sure is that they will laugh as my so-called Ignorance, denying the definition which the universe had been accepted for so long.

This is so hard… …

Can we ask questions?
Sure, of course we can!
They will reply in a subtle manner to get you off your focus and into their line.
This is what they usually do. FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS… …
By now, most of you will think that I am talking about the GOVERNMENT, no…NO!
Not only that!
Educations, especially HISTORY, it’s just another tool used by them to play with your mind, HISTORY have been rewritten, some facts have been omitted. The slightest facts can affect your thoughts towards Does this consider as HISTORY?
Depends, on which way you want to think, after all IT IS YOUR DEFINITION, not theirs to decide. But they had already influenced your mind more or less.

You’re heading towards their direction slowly… bits by bits… …

…sigh…

We are to think like them, and seldom question their authorities!
This is what most of the GREAT ONES want, Listen to what they think, Feel what they wanted us to feel, See what they thought we are supposed to see!

Plato, Confucius, Alexander…
The WISE, THE GREAT, The RULER… …
Doesn’t mean that they don’t made any mistakes!

Follow the path set by them which most of them dubbed it as the LIGHT.
Light or Darkness?

“Light, DUH!”

Again they had decided for us long before our birth. The LIGHT they set for us is always the right way, they define for us.

Knowledge often is seen as BURDEN.
An utter heavy Burden…which chained our own freedom and taught us to cling to our SOCIETY.
Among it’s teaching were PRIDE AND FEAR.
Fear because they fear to be left alone isolated by others thinking that they are heretics. Pride because it is human nature to show-off.
Thus, bind us all together sharing similar thoughts.

Thus in reality, we are not as free as we thought.
We are living in a gigantic cage surrounded by unseen concepts and definitions defined by others to keep us in ORDER and the so called HARMONY.

FREEDOM… …FREEDOM… …

What does FREEDOM really means?

… … … …
Guess I’ll leave this to you to think about it.

Can we still manage to archieve it?
Yes, only in our hearts, by re-defining everything by which they set.

DON’T JUST ACCEPT WHAT THEY HAD SET and GIVEN TO YOU, but THINK AGAIN BEHIND EVERY PURPOSE BEHIND IT and BY USING YOUR MIND then RE-DEFINE THEM YOURSELF WHILE NOT IGNORING THEIR WAY.

Don't forget, no one have the same way of thinking despite they all sounded alike.

So tell me… …
WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE… … to you?

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Quotations by 庄子 or 莊子 Zhūangzi (Zhuang Zi; Zhuang Zhou; Chuang Tzu)

To stop leaving tracks is easy. Not to walk upon the ground is hard.

There is order in chaos, and certainty in doubt. The wise are guided by this order and certainty.

We cling to our own point of view, as though everything depended on it. Yet our opinions have no permanence; like autumn and winter, they gradually pass away.

Fatal Sin of my School life

Yesterday was my worst day in my whole SCHOOLING LIFE.
I played poker with several classmates in an empty science lab during maths.(i didn't take the subject) and was caught by CHAN MOI.
...you guys would have probly guees the out right?
...DOOm...is the only word i could use to descride.

a fatal mistakes which had cost my flawless school record to be scatched.

Playing Poker...is it really a unforgivable sin?
In my DEFINITION, it isn't.
But for them...you have touched the forbiden fruit.

Ms Lina's words, till now are still echoing in my restless mind. Haunting me, whenever i rest, whatever i do, wherever i go....
"HanFei, you surprised me the most!"
....sigh...

In addition, i learn something valuable From Chinese History of Literature.
About Zhuang Zi 's View on Life.
It really affected me greatly as i was in a really depressing situation.
I really thought about. Thus i decided to write the article above
titled: THE TRUE DEFINITION.

The Link of Artificial Birth

Do not limit memory to just one individual's experiences from birth. That is only the surface. Every life born into this world, whether natural or artificial, requires a parent. And that parent also requires a parent. Life is connected, one to another... If you trace the root of all life, there exists one source. The same can be said for memory. All life constitutes an intelligence that holds memory beyond experience. Memory is not isolated within individuals. It is an accumulation of generations of memories that continues to evolve. You can say that memory and evolution go hand in hand. But most life-forms do not understand the true nature of memories... ...which explains why most memories never cross paths and are left..."untangled." ~ Garland, Final Fantasy ix

Scholarship RIGHT NOW?

Sorry to those who kept visiting my blog but found nothing interesting, i know i been all too lazy to update anything. Many apologies.

Anyway, recent stuff i've doing are:

1. Playing PS2 Game, Xenosaga III (too obsess with their great and twisting plot!)
2. Studying...maybe(Exams next friday, and it's Chinese literature History, so much too read, too many to memorise...ah my game....)
3. Still fooling around in school though i did tried my best to study. (We had to go to school despite that PMR is taking place while the rest of the school excpt us don't have the obligations to go to school...Sigh...)
4. Yeay, past my 1st MUET speking test smoothly. Got a Bend 4 grade in speaking!
5. Thinking about something...related to...scholarship....

Just received a call from someone about scholarship....about optics? Is this a con or something....? UK scholarship? AFter graduation immediately get work at England Optical? This is too good to be true.... Temptation is strong...but most probly a con....scholarship? Right now? AFter i have just settled myself in Form Six? Alamak.....my mom asked to check it out whether is this a con or not....if it isn't a con, she wants me to study that field....She said can earn lotsa money....and no need to worry about jobs or unemployed...

Money....indeed i wanna be rich as soon i'm out in to the society and employed, but this isn't what i want...Not these....i want a field related to imagination, but look at me, even in form 6 my studies aren't related to any of my interest...what does form 6 matters?

Friends? Not being alone? Maybe....i don't know.

In addition, i don't have the experience nor the charisma to be a high salary manager or whatsovere that guy told me. i'm not prepared...No, not yet....

.......sigh..........

All of a sudden....i realised i'm getting kinda depressed lately. Everything that is happeneing or happened made me think alot...maybe alittle too much...to the negative side....

Indeed knowledge can such burden....